The One Who Stayed

Michael was lying on his back under a stranger’s kitchen sink when he found out his brother had come home.

His phone buzzed on the tiles next to his head. He finished tightening the pipe, wiped his hands on his overalls and picked it up. It was a text from his father.

Sam is home. He’s been clean ninety days. Barbecue on Saturday at the house. Bring Claire and the kids. Please, son.

Michael read it twice. Then he put the phone face down on the tiles, slid back under the sink and checked the joint for leaks for much longer than it needed.

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Seven years ago Sam had sat across the kitchen table from their father and asked to be bought out.

When Frank Walsh started Walsh Plumbing in 1989, he had promised each of his sons a share of the business. Michael had been working for him since he was twenty-two. Sam had been working for him on and off, mostly off. And one Sunday after lunch, Sam announced that he didn’t want to fix toilets for the rest of his life. He wanted his share now, in cash, so he could open a restaurant in the city with a friend.

Michael had waited for their father to say no. Frank was quiet for a long time. Then he sold the cabin at the lake, the one they had gone to every summer since the boys were small, and gave Sam the money.

The restaurant lasted eight months. After that the news came in pieces. A friend of a friend had seen Sam downtown looking terrible. Then he asked their father for money. Then for more money. Then he asked for nothing at all, because he had stopped answering his phone. For three years nobody knew for certain whether he was alive.

Michael stayed. He took over Sam’s jobs and the loan the business had taken to cover the gap. He worked every Saturday. He became the church treasurer because nobody else would do it. He did not complain, at least not out loud, and he told himself that this was what a good son did.

If anyone had asked, he would not have said he was a son, exactly. He would have said he was the one who stayed.

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He didn’t reply to the message. He didn’t phone his father on Wednesday or Thursday either.

“You should go,” Claire said on Thursday night. She was folding washing on their bed.

“I’ve got a water heater to replace on Saturday.”

“You’ve always got a water heater to replace on Saturday.”

“Somebody has to do it.”

Claire put down the towel she was folding and looked at him. She didn’t say anything. After sixteen years of marriage, she didn’t need to.

On Friday afternoon his father phoned.

“Can you pick up the meat on your way tomorrow? I’ve ordered from the butcher on Main Street. Lamb chops, sausages, the good steak. Tell him it’s on the business account.”

Michael said yes, he would pick it up. He said it in a normal voice. Then he sat in the van outside the hardware store and did the sum, because he was the one who did the books. He had paid for the meat. He had paid for the lake cabin, really, and the restaurant, and whatever Sam had spent the rest on downtown. And now he was paying for the party.

He knew it was petty. He did the sum anyway. It came to a lot.

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On Saturday he replaced the water heater, which could have waited until Monday, and he arrived at his father’s house an hour and a half late.

The street was full of cars. Half the church seemed to be there. He could hear music and laughing from the back garden, and smell the grill. He carried the cooler of meat through the side gate, put it down by the back door, and stood at the corner of the house where nobody could see him.

Sam was standing by the grill.

He was thinner than Michael remembered, and older. His jeans hung off him. His hands moved all the time, picking at his sleeve, touching his face, putting his drink down and picking it up again. Their father stood beside him with one hand on his shoulder, as if Sam might drift away if he let go.

Then Sam pushed his sleeve back, and Michael saw the watch.

It was their grandfather’s Omega. Grandpa Walsh had given it to their father the day he opened the business. It had lived in the top drawer of their father’s dresser for as long as Michael could remember, and he had never once asked about it because he had never needed to. Everyone knew it would go to the eldest. Everyone knew it would go to the one who stayed.

It was much too big for Sam. It kept sliding down over his hand, and he kept pushing it back.

Michael turned around, walked back out of the gate and got into his van.

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He sat there for twenty minutes. The light went orange and then grey. Twice people from church walked past to their cars and waved at him, and he waved back as if he were busy with something on his phone.

His daughter Emma came out first. She was twelve, and she knocked on the window.

“Dad, Grandpa’s asking for you.”

“Tell him I’m on a call.”

She looked at the phone lying on the passenger seat. “You’re not on a call.”

“Emma. Please.”

She went back inside. A few minutes later the passenger door opened, and his father climbed in with a groan and pulled the door shut. He was sixty-eight, and he got in and out of vehicles like a man who had spent forty-five years crawling under houses.

They sat without saying anything for a while.

“The meat’s lovely,” Frank said eventually.

“It should be. It cost enough.”

His father didn’t answer that. He waited. He had always been good at waiting. Michael had never understood how good until now, sitting next to the man who had waited three years for a phone call.

“Nineteen years,” Michael said. His voice sounded strange to him. “Nineteen years I’ve been there every day, Dad. I’ve never missed a job. I’ve never asked you for a cent I didn’t earn. And you’ve never once thrown a party for me. Not when I got married. Not when the kids were born. Not for my fortieth. I organised my own fortieth.”

“I know.”

“And he takes half the business and burns it, and he comes back, and you give him a party and Grandpa’s watch.”

“I know,” his father said again.

“So explain it to me.”

Frank rubbed his knees for a while. Then he turned and looked at his son.

“Michael, when did you last take a Saturday off?”

Michael opened his mouth and found he didn’t know.

“I’ve been telling you for ten years to hire another plumber. I’ve told you to go to Emma’s games. I’ve told you to take Claire away for a weekend. I put the business in your name in March. I signed the papers at the lawyer’s and you never even read them, because you were too busy checking the invoices.” His father shook his head. “You could have had a party any Saturday you liked. You could have had a hundred. You never asked me for anything, son. You just worked. Like you were paying off a debt.”

He tapped Michael on the chest with one thick finger.

“Who do you think you owe?”

Michael looked out of the windscreen at the dark street. He didn’t have an answer.

“Everything I have is yours,” his father said. “It has been the whole time. I just couldn’t make you believe it.” He opened the door. “But your brother was as good as dead. And today he’s alive and standing next to my grill. So I had to celebrate. I couldn’t do anything else.”

He got out, slowly, and closed the door gently behind him. He didn’t ask Michael to come in. He just went back through the gate and left it open.

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Michael sat in the van for a long time.

He thought about praying, and for a while he couldn’t. Every prayer he started sounded like an invoice. Lord, I’ve done this. Lord, I’ve done that. He had been praying that way for nineteen years without noticing it.

In the end all he managed was, “I don’t know how to be Your son. I only know how to work for You.”

It wasn’t much. It was honest, and he had a feeling that was what was needed.

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When he walked through the gate, nobody made a fuss. A couple of people from church raised their glasses. Claire looked up from where she was sitting with friends, saw his face, and went back to her conversation, which he loved her for.

Sam saw him from the grill and went very still.

Michael walked over. Up close his brother looked even worse, and also more like their mother than Michael remembered. Sam’s eyes were wet before Michael had said anything.

“I told Dad it was too much,” Sam said quickly. “The party, the watch. I told him. I can give it back. I’ll go if you want. I don’t need…”

Michael looked down at the watch. It had slid halfway over Sam’s knuckles again.

“You’ll need two links taken out of that,” he said. “I know a jeweller on Main Street. I’ll take you on Monday.”

Sam stared at him. Then he laughed, a short wet laugh, and pushed the watch back up his arm.

Their father was holding the grill tongs. Michael reached for them out of habit, the way he had reached for them at every family barbecue since he was fifteen. Frank moved them out of his reach.

“Sit down, Michael.”

So he did. He sat down in a plastic chair next to the grill, with his hands empty on his knees, feeling ridiculous. A minute later Sam brought him a plate with two chops, a sausage and too much potato salad, and Michael, who had never in his life sat still while other people worked, stayed in his chair and ate.